Women Came

Calling all women. Have you ever felt as if you just didn't belong here? Have you ever felt in talking to other women that something is just amiss? Despise seeing people mistreating one another? I am quite tired of women treating women badly, we were the first lovers. Forced here to live among men against our will. Ever look to the sky and know there is where your home is? It is...then the women came

"When out of forests, flat lands
women came".
they laid fields down in seed
grain grew, women grew it
Knew what sacrifices, offerings to make
with wonderful names
Ashtarte, Isisar, Isis ruled
Capsicum, cayenne, coriander, fenugreek
herbs of the Earth relieved fevers
healed wounds
cured.

Cyclical life
life rhythm
moonlife
womanlife

When women planted, raised animals
made shelters
as they built fires, gathered wood
they loved one another, this was understood
women loved women
blood women
womb women
tasters of the moon

Weavers, spinners
they dyed laughter into their colors
shared sorrow on the threads of their looms
a line of cloth on their backs
and rings

They danced
chanted Earthsongs with their children
voices of their land, their work
their mothers gone a thousand years,
remembered
O Ashtarte, O Ishtar, O Isis
goddesses shoulder to shoulder
back upon back
women were lovers: Earth lovers
women lovers
star gazers...

Jeanne Tetrault ~ 1976

A choice

I wrote this back in July 2011, I just rediscovered it today. I figured I would post it, it might help someone.

We always have a choice whether to be asleep or to be awake. To be asleep or awake to what, you may ask. Well some of you may know what I am referring too but for those of you who do not, read on. I lived most of my life in and out of waking periods and sleeping periods of self. Dreams when I was a young girl in sex-capades with a horned being, thinking I was in love with the devil, in and out of memories of a place or rather a place that "felt" more like home than this world we live in. I spent most of my life trying to figure out why I was here in the first place. When I could be in a better place, which turned into a complete loathing of this world, I had abilities that made no sense to me and I spent much of my young life wishing them away. I had reoccurring dreams of wolves stalking me, following me or just plain scaring the hell out of me. I had many dreams in which I was running and in a rare occasion I noticed that the feet I was running with were not mine, but rather feet that were somewhat furry. Many dreams of falling from trees and just in general people and places that felt real but nothing like here. I began to develop a feeling of homesickness as a teenager that I could not explain to anyone and at times so overwhelming that I would slip into depressions that no one knew how to help me through. I then got into the craft, I had a hunger and a thirst for the occult and no library contained enough books in the 133 section to even assist in my indulgences.

When I was in my twenties as I started to wake up I began to understand that I was indeed different and not crazy like I had previously assumed, but rather I realized I was someone who was not from here at all. I could tell the difference between people those that are the norm or human and those who were different or from home. I could see and differentiate characteristics. I could tell if they had horns, if they were of the furred persuasion, tree dwellers, earthy types, winged, sea creatures, those who prefer to live in the shadows, and I could smell those who craved blood from a distance. When I began to wake up I keened into my abilities that never went away just placed on hold. I began to heal myself and accepted who I was and my gifts. Once my fears were gone, people who were the same as I was started coming into my life, I found places to go that I could interact with them. I had finally found peace or somewhat. I continue to have memories of home and people do come to me frequently for help who have an interest in finding out who they are as well. Although all is answered now I do still have issues with this world and the direction it is going in. There are few places in this world that I feel safe but I muster through.

Now in my late thirties I have come to terms with this world but not agree with the way it is being taken care of. I have memories of home being destroyed and what I have seen is very similar to the destruction that is currently happening here. I have seen many intentional communities popping up where good people are trying to make do with that they have without taking more than they need, conserving the Earth, the water and its resources. Some have great intentions but their ego gets in the way and fail; some that have clear intentions without Ego and are succeeding. We have to start asking what can “we” do as a people not what can “I” do or what am “I” going to get out of this? So it is all about choices, we all have choices whether we want to be asleep or awake, to interact in society or to remain hidden in the shadows. I believe that if we remain asleep it equates to boredom and if we are awake and proactive we could change the world.

I can now say that I absolutely love being a wolf person! I don’t have much tolerance for stupidity, and I do have pretty clear intentions although the world does get in the way, I am very protective of my loved ones, and only allow so many into my circle of family and friends…but once you’re in, its forever. I am a fierce lover and am a very doting and overwhelming parent. If I feel threatened I retreat into the shadows and you may never see a trace of me again. I only attack if my children are being threatened; I do lick my wounds and do see intrusiveness as a weakness. I admire those who are strong but I never turn my back on those who are weak. We all have our weaknesses. The only wolf-ism I would like to clarify is as follows…we do not only mix with other wolves. I do have a fondness for those that are horned :)

MommaSavage

Deity Questionnaire

Do you have a close relationship with the Deity(ies) of your choice?
Yes I have a close relationship with Deity. Brigid was the first to contact me when I was a teenager. I have worked with many more over the years and I believe in direct deity contact.

How do you communicate with them?
I can just hear them. Sometimes they speak to me through written words, dreams or I will see them as manifestations in occurrences in my life.

Do they Answer/Grant your request?
Yes, I often ask things of deity and most times it will manifest in my life. I also advise with my guide. My guide asks more of me than deity in most cases.

Who is your patron God?
The Horned One, no name was ever given. I have a strong affinity for him and I felt him with me since I was very young.

Who is your patron Goddess?

I have worked with many a Great Goddess, so to call one my patron I cannot. I will say that I am dedicated the Great One who has no name and no face. I have worked with many Earthly Goddesses but to just list a few they are as follows: Cerridwen, the Great Sow Goddess who taught me to fear for nothing or no one, Brighid (Bree) who to me was the great Mother who birthed me into my true being, Hecate, who guided me through the darkest time of my life...when I felt my own life slipping away she gently (well maybe not so gently) back into my being, Queen Maeve, who may not be listed as a great Goddess but a queen nonetheless...I refused her bidding just because I could, I am sure we will meet up again someday due to my choice. Lilith, the great dark one...whatever I have never seen so much light in my life as the time I worked with this magic maker. She was the goddess who gave me my wings and brought my sister back to me. Oh, I could go on and on...but then I wouldn’t have anything to write about later.

MommaSavage

You know sometimes life pitches a curveball

I have been quite retrospective the last year. I have to say sometimes when we get everything that we want it can be disastrous. I have recently rededicated myself to my path for a year and the Goddess has given me such gifts already. I have recently created my own tarot/oracle cards, started writing again and I have definitely found that I am much stronger. I have my health, my children are strong, my relationship is rocky as usual but like me it is ever changing. Being married to a horned one isn't what is cracked up to be. Let me be the first to tell you! One day my very own Goddess will come along, sigh...with all that I have to say that I am somewhat content. I know that I don't typically speak of myself on here but as I viewed my stats today I realized that I am averaging 20 - 30 visitors daily even with nothing new. So I figured I needed to give an update. I have not discontinued my writing of the Goddess, rather she has me on some much needed "me" time. I have made some commitments in the past and due to unforeseen circumstances I failed to meet those commitments when I was much relied on, for that I apologize (you know who you are). Since I am on the soapbox I would also like to say a big thanks to you all who have me in their feeds, I am honored that you believe in me and I promise I will get back to posting as soon as I can. Stay tuned...